In Joy So High, So Very High

When two of my children were much younger they were home schooled.  In the evenings after dinner I would read to my son and my daughter from Hans Christian Andersen: The Complete Fairy Tales and Stories

Here’s what we read…

The Little Mermaid

The Princess and the Pea

The Little Match Girl

The Emperor’s New Clothes

The Steadfast Tin Soldier

The Ugly Duckling

Thumbelina

The Snow Queen

And so many more…

…I remember reading the Snow Queen while snow was falling quietly one winter evening.

From Hans Christian Andersen’s diary, a prayer:

 “Almighty God, thee only have I; thou steerest my fate, I must give myself up to thee! Give me a livelihood! Give me a bride! My blood wants love, as my heart does!”

I recommend reading this book to your children:

Hans Christian Andersen: The Complete Fairy Tales and Stories, translated from the Danish by Erik Christian Haugaard,

Here are some excerpts:

“And the matches gave such a brilliant light that it was brighter than at noon-day: never formerly had the grandmother been so beautiful and so tall. She took the little maiden, on her arm, and both flew in brightness and in joy so high, so very high, and then above was neither cold, nor hunger, nor anxiety–they were with God.” The Little Match Girl

“”I cannot bear it!” said the pewter soldier.” I have shed pewter
tears! It is too melancholy! Rather let me go to the wars and
lose arms and legs! It would at least be a change. I cannot
bear it longer! Now, I know what it is to have a visit from
one’s old thoughts, with what they may bring with them! I have
had a visit from mine, and you may be sure it is no pleasant
thing in the end; I was at last about to jump down from the
drawers.”” The Old House

The Old House

Week in Review – July 5, 2010 –July 11, 2010

I don’t remember Monday.

 Tuesday, on Nova, I learned that the universe is rapidly expanding away, from where to where, I don’t know.  But this explains my need to be going somewhere right now.  I also heard about red shifts and blue shifts (not the loosely hanging dress but light speed wavelengths) and that light travels at 186,000 m/sec. Physicists have not been able to break this speed record first clocked by Einstein.  Nature has, though, and right after the Big Bang.  The hyper-speed is called inflation. The temperature of the universe is universally uniform, a lovely green on the light spectrum. I also learned that light slows down when refracted by water or a prism.  This will come in handy when I wear a bathing suit this summer. There was also a news report that there is a big hole in the universe. “Not only has no one ever found a void this big, but we never even expected to find one this size,” said Lawrence Rudnick of the University of Minnesota reported in a paper accepted for publication in the Astrophysical Journal.  I somehow think this will involve me someday (or George Bush). (Perhaps it is the effects of progressivism waiting in the wings.)

 Wednesday, during my regular doctor’s appointment I was told that I could go on roller coasters but I must wear a neck brace.  This piece of news was of special interest to me especially since I hadn’t mentioned to my doctor my desire to ride a roller coaster or even the inclination to be near one.  All I told my doctor during my appointment was how fragile I felt since having two surgeries on my neck for a herniated disc (C5-C6 for all of you ER nurses).  I never mentioned to him that last Sunday night I saw a Great America commercial on TV.  At that time I mentioned to my daughter that I would love to go but I felt I couldn’t risk it anymore with my weakened spine. My daughter didn’t care – “roller coasters are for throwing up.”

 Thursday night I saw commercials for the World Cup and still felt no desire to watch the human pinball machine in action.  The guys are cute, though.  If the World Cup was ninety minutes of soccer guys doing underwear commercials (ala the Vanity Fair June 2010 cover), well then, I would become a soccer mom.

 I don’t remember Friday night. I went to work on Friday, got on the train at the end of the work day and arrived home on Saturday morning.

 Last night, sitting in my favorite Mexican restaurant, I was an OR nurse for about fifteen minutes.  No, I didn’t cut into anyone. Rather, a woman pointed me out as being a nurse she knew who worked with her in the OR at Rush-Copely Medical Center.  She said this because she noticed my eyes, the only part of me that would stick out of a surgical gown. Prior to coming over to me, she had her picture taken with an “El Puente” sombrero on her head and a lighted cupcake. Her scruffy boyfriend ducked under the hat with margarita in hand just in time to have his picture taken next to her. After the photo shoot she waved “Hi” in my direction and I waved back in birthday courtesy.  When she walked over to me later I told her that I was good with knives and forks but that I was only a lowly electrical designer who worked in Chicago. I again wished her Happy Birthday but without my imaginary scrubs.  She returned to her Margarita, one of two influences in her life at the moment.

 This morning I head to church. I hope to make sense of all these things or to at least make a clean start for next week.  The Lord is my Shepherd and I need to get back to the fold.

Addicted to Love

With the economy doing a head and shoulders march toward another recession, our President Obama is busy at work laying tracks for his progressive soul train and bypassing the dire economic issues at hand.  What economy?  Obama has global warming, cap and trade, education reform and a host of other subordinate issues in his docket to dabble in first.  Now, his AG Eric Holder is filing suit against Arizona’s immigration law.  Stupid move and what’s this? Obama finally joined in the battle against the gulf oil spill after James Carville read him the riot act.  Initially, Obama didn’t want the help of other nations to fix the spill.  I guess he’s too big to fail. 

On the record, Obama spent his first year in office on a national health care bill and on blaming Bush. We now have a national health care that our country can not pay for and that most Americans do not want and Bush looks better than ever.   On his recent prosperity tour, Obama and his slick cohort Joe Biden proclaimed how great things are and will be in America.  His “big picture” is to campaign jobs into creation by the sheer force of his community organizer will and yet, no improvements still in the economy or in the hopes of the American people. 

Obama recently let us know that some people make enough money and so he means to take the ‘excess’ from them.  This concept of taking someone’s property is stealing to God (see Commandment #8) but is re-labeled as “redistribution of wealth” by the god-man, Obama. And, he continues to verbally hammer away on big business even though big business, any business for that matter, is the cornerstone of our economy. Obama is the “fat cat” of fairness with Biblical disproportions

We have a president who inspires no confidence whatsoever.  He’s definitely not the likes of Martin Luther King or Ghandi or even a Jimmy Carter.  Jimmy Carter did not inspire confidence either, but he didn’t erode the national confidence as Obama has done and Obama’s reign of financial terror is not over. His big government Keynesian style economy is certainly more of a tyranny than any big corporation could ever become – you have to pay taxes. Economic slavery is only a jot and tittle away from becoming law.

Obama is more like a misunderstood child (Carter-like) who needs to constantly crusade in order to bolster his rolled up shirt sleeve poster boy image.  He wants to be admired and loved. He hopes there is an Oprah in all of us to coddle him.  He also believes that his image, a Harvard law grad from humble beginnings, will inspire the people to follow him. To be sure, there are lemmings still in tow. I don’t buy it and you and I can’t take it to the bank, either.  With all his highly polished learning, he only knows how to get around laws. He is incompetent as a leader.  And, he has become indecisive to a fault on crucial national issues while being dogmatically decisive on his own ideological issues, thereby creating havoc. Maybe he thinks that if he waits long enough the problem will go away. Or, another campaign is in order.  Woodrow Wilson, move over.

Obama spends a lot to time playing catch-up because he’s spends most of time tweaking his constant mutual admiration society address in front of his favorite tele-prompters:  Axelrod and Emmanuel.  He is a tireless campaigner for himself.  He wants to feel the love on the campaign trail that he doesn’t feel in the polls.  He doesn’t seem to see anything beyond those two screens or himself.  Behind the screens of this Manchurian Candidate there is a defiant scrapper (Black Panther-esque) who hones in on a certain issue of interest to himself (maybe basketball or his next golf game) and ignores everything else. He doesn’t get it. And, the American people are getting nothing but frustrated and hungry. Another great depression is headed our way if Obama remains in office.  You might as well face it – this President is addicted to love.

The Fourth Of July

 

  “O Beautiful for Spacious skies:”

Our star-spangled sky awaits the launch of the surprise party.

Batteries of anxious fireworks keep cover in the bushes,

“Happy Birthday!” forever moments away.

***

 The guests of honor arrive blanketed with family.

Squares of earth are filled with tonight’s squatters.

“Look!”  The party now begins:

A single whistling flare finds its way up to center stage –

 

KA-BOOM!

Now, other party favors come out of hiding:

Reverberation Red

Whistling White

Brandishing Blue

Go-for-it Green

Poised Purple

Startling Silver

Yackety Yellow

Gracious Gold

Outspoken Orange

***

A jetting candle begins with a swoosh,

Then,

a hunting, hinting sizzle scorches a path upward

Then,

A silence pauses mid air

Then,

a whispered cork pop releases

 

KA-BABOOM!

A sudden burst of Spectacular etches America’s book cover.

The book:

The Land of the Free, The Home of the Brave.

***

 The birthday party continues on the ground:

– Sparklers arcing on sticks, light splashing onto large-eyed looks

– Smoke bombs cloaking crowds in fogs

– Snakes coiling out of their black dot cages

– Rockets shooting straight up to find freedom

– Fountains erupting impulsively

 – M80s breaking the drums of ears.

***

Heaven gazing figures are photographed,

Secretly captured by a popping flash bulb sky.

Gun powder sulphers the air,

Ashes rain down speckling faces.

***

Today, there has been preparation for the birthday party:

Parades lined the streets,

Marching bands bugled and drummed The Stars and Stripes,

Pies, apple and blueberry, were swallowed à la mode,

Picnics popped up in parks,

Punch tie-dyed white tee shirts,

Potato sack races tripped up with laughter,

Horseshoes were flung at neighbors.

***

Flags are bowed forward on porches,

Flags wave fields of stars,

Flags march stately with fields unfurled,

Flags receive honor when are hats are removed, when salutes are rendered,

Rendered by men and women who secured their honor with life and limb.

Grandparents, smiling their tearful approval from lawn chairs,

Stretch out tired legs and stand for Old Glory.

***

America, you are beautiful,

From sea to shining sea beautiful.

Tonight we see your birthday smile,

Your ear-to-ear you grin, revealing to us your dazzling braces:

“Liberty under God and the law”.

Each year we return to your birthday party with fused smiles and arsenals of hope

Seeking sparks of optimism to ignite our dreams and shoot them skyward.

With wide-eyed wonder we stare into your “Spacious Skies”

Wishing you many more.

******

© Sally Paradise, 2010, All Rights Reserved

Monroe Harbor Midday

Thursday noon I walked along Chicago’s Monroe Harbor.  There, anchored sailboats bobbed on top of Lake Michigan’s rolling green-blue water.  It seemed that each boat’s mast had become a swinging pendulum of a winding-down metronome.  A chorus of bell sounds could be heard.  The boats’ block and tackle, loosely fitted, clanged and clinked against the mast with each back and forth of the boat.

 In Monroe Harbor there are sailboats with names like Trade Winds, Sea Odyssey II, Aquatics Synonymous and Blind Ambition. This quietly undulating waterfront scene provided the bottom half of my horizon. Above, the solid sun shone directly over my head like a much hoped-for halo, burning a hole into the cloudless cerulean sky.

 … I come here often during my lunch times.  I need the sights and sounds of sea and sky for my moorings

“I’m Sorry” IS As “I’m Sorry” Does

Have you ever been in a close relationship with someone and they apologized to you in this manner:  “I’m sorry I said ‘this’.  I said ‘this’ because of what you did.”  The apology is based on the premise that the apologizer is only just responding to your bad behavior.  The apologizer’s behavior was deemed OK by the apologizer but their response wasn’t. According to them, their ‘bad’ response is just a ‘natural’ reaction to your ‘bad’ behavior.  Consequently, every bad thing that happened in the relationship at that time was your fault, according to their sham apology. The apologizer takes no responsibility for his or her own actions.  And, they may not even be aware of their contribution to the problem at hand.

 This type of bogus apology tells me that I am in relationship with someone who does not love me.  The apologizer only sees that they have been ‘wronged’. They do not want to be reconciled.  They do not want the relationship to be repaired and righted. They desire only to protect their self-image and keep their reputation ‘clean’.

 With these types of apologies, your relationship is like the game of Sorry:  your opponent ‘lands’ on you and sends you back to Start – so close and so far from Home.

 “Never ruin an apology with an excuse.”  ~Kimberly Johnson

  “A bend in the road is not the end of the road… unless you fail to make the turn.”
Unknown Author

“We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.”
François Duc de La Rochefoucauld (I want a name like this!)

This Is Where I Get Off

Standing at the corner of State and Madison today, waiting to cross the street,  I saw a huge CTA bus drive right up close to me and then go down the street  In the front window of the bus was a small almost obscure sign which read:  “Training Bus”.  The writing of the sign was such that you couldn’t read it until the bus was right up on you.  Maybe the innocuous sign is posted as a federal regulation:  to let the reader know why they were almost hit by a bus.  Or, maybe these are your last words, posted at the intersection of heaven and earth.

“The safest road to Hell is the gradual one — the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without signposts. “  From the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis

The Taste of Chicago

With a friend of mine from work, I walked over to the Taste of Chicago today.  This yearly event held in Grant Park is jam-packed with great food samples from restaurants throughout Chicago.  The weather for past Taste events has been extremely hot.  Our midday lunch weather this year was warm and breezy – perfectly enjoyable.

 We bought our tickets and then wandered through the smoky air past barbequed ribs, jerk chicken, Satay chicken, pork tacos, polish sausage, hot dogs, brats, Chicago deep dish pizza, gyros, cheese cake and dozens more local and ethnic food booths.  The smells embrace you as you walked past the open-faced booths.  In the distance a Latin group could be heard singing on one of several stages.

  My usual stop is a Billy Goat’s Tavern.  This is where you’ll hear Cheezborger! Cheezborger! No fries, cheeps! No Pepsi, Coke!”? This year was no different.

http://www.billygoattavern.com/

I can’t resist the spiel, so I buy a cheeseburger, chips and a Pepsi.  Deon wanted the Upside Down Caramel Cupcake from Abundance Bakery.  (It’s funny how God reminds me of certain things.  See my previous post!)  Later, she and I later walked past Eli’s Cheesecake booth.  We both lusted after the Turtle Cheesecake with Vanilla Ice Cream.  Mmm! Lord, have mercy! 

http://blog.elicheesecake.com/

 At last year’s Taste, Deon and I followed the food booths to Buckingham Fountain.  There in the gardens surrounding the fountain we found the Budweiser Clydesdales.  They stood majestically in the shade of the high arching trees. Though I stood on tiptoes, I could not reach the top of their heads. We didn’t see the horses this year, though. Instead, Deon and I and thousands of others were the one’s putting on the feed bag.

 I may have to return to the Taste later this week and check out the Carbon booth for some steak tacos and then some awesome cheesecake at the Eli’s booth.  It’s a good thing that I walk there and back from work. I may need to walk home, too.

Embrace the upSide Down

“But when they did not find them, they dragged Jason and some brethren to the rulers of the city, crying out, “These who have turned the world upside down have come here too.”

The words “upside down” came into my head last Sunday night.  I’m not sure why.  When these words showed up on my radar I immediately thought of the above verse from Dr. Luke’s account, The Acts of The Apostles.  I have been seeking the Lord about some ways for me to live out my life for the Kingdom of God – to return a profit for the Kingdom.  As is my nature I looked for something exotic to fill my days with:  some grand cause to devote my time, energy and money towards.  But, the “grandiose cause” turns out to be just my own desire to control the cause, make it mine and receive all the credit: “You are truly magnanimous!”  That type of thinking doesn’t get you very far in God’s Kingdom.  In fact, it only digs a rut to your own slough of despair.

Well, the Lord got my attention on Sunday night. I asked for wisdom and He gave it to me – pressed down, shaken and in good measure.  Words both old and new began to fill my head:  “when you pray…”; “when you fast…”; “when you give…” 

Now, I know what I need to do.  Who knows?  I may become one of those “who turn the world upside down.”

My Day(s) in Court

Over the course of many years I have had the privilege of serving on juries.  Because I am a registered voter, I had been chosen to serve on juries.  The juries that I served on each served a different legal entity within the legal system and each jury experience entailed learning about a law and applying that law in each particular case.

The petit trial jury, as usual, is picked from a general pool of people.  The pool is then narrowed down by asking questions to obtain a certain neutrality or lack of pre-judgment to the person being tried.  Both the defense and the plaintiff’s attorneys try to bring on a juror who would be sympathetic to their client and someone who also is impartial and not having any personal bias in any ‘way-out’ direction.  They also look for someone who has a basic understanding of life and someone who is not a law breaker.  I was picked to be a juror.  There were twelve of us selected to hear a case regarding battery charges against a man.  The plaintiff was his wife.

Once the jury selection process was completed the judge gave the jury some general instructions. The plaintiff and defendant then entered the courtroom and the trial began. There were opening arguments from both sides.  There were photographs submitted as evidence of physical abuse.  The woman’s face was shown bruised and scratched. There was testimony from both partied involved and then closing statement by both attorneys.  The jury was then told to go to the jury room and to deliberate on all the counts of battery that were charged against the man.

Once in the jury room there was lot of immediate discussion, some of it about the hour of day.  It was five-o’clock in the afternoon.  Some of the jurors wanted to get the deliberation over with quickly and get home for supper.  We soon decided that jury foreman was needed so we each suggested someone and then someone said that we should vote secretly to decide who would be the foreman. We voted and an outspoken man was picked. He seemed to be a natural leader.

We discussed for two hours.  We talked about the charges, we looked at the pictures and we took secret votes along the way to see where the jury stood.  We could not come to complete agreement about the verdict.  I said the man was guilty.  Many others said that this kind of thing happens all the time and that he shouldn’t be charged.  Mostly the men and a couple of the women said this.  I said the evidence strongly suggests that he did do what he was alleged to have done – hit his wife and hurt her. The jury became deadlocked. A unanimous decision could not be reached.

At seven o’clock we told the bailiff that the jury was deadlocked.  The bailiff told the judge and he sent back word that we must reach a decision – we must resolve our severe differences.  We again discussed the case for another two hours.  We still we could not agree on a verdict.  There were ten jurors who wanted to acquit the man and two of us who thought he was guilty as charged.  We told the bailiff again and she told the judge.

The judge had us come back into the court room. The foreman read out the non-verdict, “We could not reach a verdict your honor.” The judge subsequently ruled that the case was a mistrial.  The defendant sighed in relief.  The jury was free to go home.

As we were leaving the court room we could then ask questions of the assistant state’s attorney.  As it turned out, this man had been charged with several other similar episodes of physical violence.  He was habitually hurting his wife.  I went home at 10:30 that night knowing that my judgment was right but deeply saddened to know that his man was let go to hurt someone again.  That was my first jury experience.

A year or so later, I received some mail saying that I was selected to serve on the DuPage County Grand jury.  As I recall, the grand jury lasted 4-5 weeks, three days a week. I believe there were 25 people in this jury.  We heard the state’s attorney and the assistant state’s attorneys read charges, providing evidence for the charges.  The charges ranged from felony theft to fraud to gang related violence- capital or infamous crimes.  There were often multiple count indictments for one person. We as a jury were asked whether an indictment should be issued.  The purpose of a grand jury is to determine if there is enough evidence to go forward with a trial.  I learned a lot about the law during this time.  (My employer was none to happy, though, that I was gone from work so much)

A couple years after this grand jury experience I was told by mail that I was to be a federal court juror. I made the trip to downtown Chicago and the Federal Building each day.  This jury of twelve members heard a case about a man accused of transporting stolen radios and electronic equipment across state lines.  I was chosen to be the jury foreman since I had the most previous jury experience.  We heard the testimonies and the evidence.  We heard the accused man testify. We heard the final statements from both attorneys and then we went to deliberate in the jury room.  Our deliberation took 2 hours.  We came back with a verdict.  I read it out loud:  “Guilty on each count, your honor.”

Each jury experience I encountered, and there were several others where I didn’t qualify due to conflict of interest with elements of the case before the court, each experience was a very sobering event. I imagined myself in place of the accused. I also imagined myself as the plaintiff, the supposed victim. I listened to evidence and testimony intensely, garnering facts.  I sought justice and mercy at the same time. It is not easy being a juror and each jury is different. There are always some jurors who are flippant, some who are adamant, some loud and obnoxious jurors and some silent jurors, as well. I will not soon forget these times nor will I forget that there are laws which I must abide by or I will be the one facing my peers in court.